Monday, 27 February 2017

The King, the Prophet and the Servant

I have tried to write blog posts several times in the past few weeks, about Trump and politics and stuff. But I can't seem to hit the publish button.

And then I started reading the Dark Mountain blog, where the idea of myths and stories surfaces again and again. So instead of facts and reasoning I'm going to share a story I've written, it links with a story that posted ages ago called the Ash, the Oak and the Yew. I hope you enjoy it.



The King, the Prophet and the Servant

The Kings first wife arrived in the summer, in the swimming-in-the-cool-river time, the lying-in-the-meadows time. The sky such a perfect transparent blue that you could see through it to the blackness of space. The butterflies that he put in jars for her because she loved them, those impossible creatures that only a mind of wild, divine imagination could invent. Perhaps, at first she had been something akin to good. But time changed her and she became cruel, sadistic, arrogant; the darkness inside her, that he never knew what to do with, shrank and hardened into a stone of bitterness and, like a grain of sand in an oyster, this grew by degrees until it became her most precious possession. A pearl of malevolence that she treasured because it defined her.
   And in this way the long years passed. He carried out his royal duties as best he could but his tender heart was not in it, for who knew where the Queen went during the long weeks she was away? And who could say how she might treat him when she returned? With indifference or cruelty?
   One autumn, when the Jew’s Ears sprung up, as if the elder trees listened to the secrets of the forest, and when the trees themselves appeared to be faraway lands carved from copper and gold and emeralds, a woman found herself in the King’s court. A fiery woman with red hair and hands rough from years of toil; a fiercely loyal woman with a heart of gold.
   She was a doctor of sorts. And she saw the sadness of the king, saw how the other courtiers took advantage of it, and her heart ached on his behalf. She was kind to him, advised him honestly, comforted him in his misery until she found that she loved him dearly and he loved her too.
   The King proposed marriage but first he must, honourable to the last, divorce the Queen. So he told the Queen that he loved another and although she hadn’t loved him for a long time she was wrathful with jealousy. She and her servants rode away faster than rain falling from the sky. In her absence the King married his lover, the Doctor, and they became one, legally, physically and spiritually.
   Their marriage was a happy one. For two months they lay together in the meadows and wooded places, they walked in the gardens and picked fruits and mushrooms, and she supported him in the running of his kingdom.
   Then the Queen returned. And within three days the Kings love lay dead upon their bed, blue with poison, with the King weeping over her body, softly kissing her forehead. The Queen stood gravely by, and it was clear that the poisoning had been no accident; her cruel lips curled.
   The King knew what she had done and, to her outrage, banished her.
   She returned two months later begging his forgiveness, pouring his wine, serving his food. He was lethargic with mourning yet even he could only put up with her deception for so long and he banished her once more.
   He heard many years later that the Queen had been killed in a distant land, by heroes ridding their town of her tyranny, and he felt a little satisfaction, but only a little. By this time he ruled alone, watching over the hills and forests, hearing the squabbles of ordinary people and protecting their lands from threats within and without. And this is how we find the King when he meets the woman who would become his third wife.

One autumn, after a poor harvest, before a hard winter, a strange man arrived in the kingdom. He rode a fine, strong horse which pulled a cart filled with the most beautiful fruits, vegetables and grain: wheat and barley which was so yellow you might fancy it was grown from gold coins dropped in the soil.
   The man himself was cheerful and rosy cheeked, handsome and plump. Such a vision of plenty when the people were just preparing themselves for a meagre winter attracted attention, and the strange man gave out food all the along the road which lead to the Kings palace. So the King knew long in advance of the mans’ coming.
   He introduced himself everywhere he went as the Prophet and claimed that if he was granted an audience with the King he would solve all the kingdoms problems.
   “Good King!” he cried when the two men finally met, “you have such a rich, wealthy kingdom, why do your people live like peasants, starving in squalor?”
   The King was puzzled. He knew it had been a bad harvest – he had been distributing food himself that very day to the very poorest of his people – yet he didn’t think his people lived quite so badly as the Prophet described; there would always be bad years, just as there would always be good years. He begged the Prophet to explain what he meant.
   “Well, so very many of them work the land for a start! And such little fields, your majesty, and so very few of them. And all between I saw forests and wild land. No wonder your people go hungry when the fields they farm are so few and so small.”
   This had never occurred to the King before. He knew little about the land, although he loved it well enough and always wished he knew more. Perhaps the Prophet held the key to his troubles.
   So the Prophet joined the Kings court and began to advise him. The Prophet had come from a very wealthy land indeed, a place of such great abundance that only very few people had to work the land at all.
   “And of course,” said the Prophet, “they are the very best paid men in the kingdom, because they provide for all of us.” And he promised to share all the ways and methods of his people with the King so that the Kingdom would grow rich and the people could live in comfort.

The arrival of the Prophet brought great excitement to the Kingdom, as well as an unidentifiable shift in the fabric of the world. An unrest of sorts, or a change in the winds, or perhaps it was simply the turning of the seasons.
   When spring came around again, the Prophets plans were well under way, although he promised the King that it would be some years before the Kingdom would experience true wealth like his own land.
  With the spring came another stranger. She did not arrive on the road which lead beyond the borders of the kingdom, instead she walked out of the forest. It was the time of the spring gales; one moment the storm clouds gathered and made war, the next the sparkling world was lit by glorious sunlight.
   The woman also requested an audience with the King. When she was turned away (for she looked like nothing more than rough, grubby laywoman) she returned patiently every day, until the Kings courtiers, amused by her persistence, brought her before him.
   The King sat on his throne, in his lovely robe of silk and fur, surrounded by his closest friends and advisers, with the Prophet at his elbow.
   “My Lord,” she bowed, her voice was low and serious, “I am known as the Servant. And I have come to advise you as best I can.”
   The King welcomed her then added, “what a curious name you have. How did you earn it?”
   “I am servant to all, but no man is my master.”
   “And how would you advise me?”
   “I would advise you to turn that man out of your court,” and she pointed a long finger at the Prophet who cried out in surprise, “and to treat all the things he has told you as dangerous lies.”
   At this point there was an uproar, for the Prophet was well liked by everyone, some even cried that the Servant to be placed under arrest, however the Prophet himself called for order and suggested that the woman explain herself.
   “You say that you come from a land far away,” she said to the Prophet who agreed that this was the case. She continued, “do you deny that the very measures that created such abundance in your land for a few short years destroyed the land and caused its people to starve?”
   The Prophet denied this very loudly.
   “Do you also deny that the measures that you are trying to put in place in this kingdom turned your lands earth to dust, worked its children to death and drove its animals to extinction?”
   He denied this also.
   The Servant stood up very tall and said in disgust, “then you are a liar and a Charlatan.” And she spat at his feet.
   After this she was removed by the guards and thrown bodily into the street; the courtiers cheered angrily as she left. The King was glad to see her go too, but her words had made him uneasy and he found it hard to forget them.
   She returned every day hence, begging an audience with the King. She finally gained one - although she was allowed into court reluctantly - and, like before, she condemned the Prophet.
   The king ordered her to be removed once again but she was nowhere to be found. “perhaps she’s a witch,” whispered the courtiers, “she disappears like magic!” In fact the palace servants had hidden her in their quarters, and they continued to do so each time the King ordered her removal; she would wait until the court had forgotten about her then return to beg the King to stop the Prophets plans. But he would not listen.
   This went on for two years. The first harvest was very bad – and this left the people more desperate than ever for the Prophets plans to be put in place – the second year was even worse, but nobody had time to complain; they were all too busy clearing the forest and wild lands.
   “Soon,” thought the King, “nobody will be hungry. Everyone will be well and strong and happy.” And he worked as hard as anyone.
   It was the first warm week in spring; that surprise parcel of sunny days when the mornings are growing lighter and the birds are beginning to try out their summer songs. The Servant rose early, left the castle and walked into the woods. The King saw her from the window and, curious to discover where she went (and perhaps hoping to catch her at some new treachery), followed her through the trees where the new leaves were coming through and the soft herbs deadened his footsteps.
   She walked slowly, enjoying the morning, all the way down to the river. The King knew that he should turn back but somehow he couldn’t; he hid and watched the Servant bathe.
   When she stepped out of the water she wrapped her cloak about herself and walked straight to where the King was hidden. He apologised over and over until she held up a hand to silence him; she had seen the loneliness in his eyes.

That night there was a quiet knock on the door of the Kings bedroom. The Servant entered softly and allowed him to hold her. Then they lay together and for a while the King felt as if all the broken parts of the world had been made whole, as if all the grey, squalid places had been made green and new.
   After that she didn’t go to his chamber again. But he sought her company more and more; at first trying to atone for his previous desire but soon simply because he liked to be with her. Her clarity of thinking was unclouded by her own wants and her generosity was a more measured sort than the Prophets, like a stream which would never run dry.
   The Prophet watched their friendship with growing unease. He reminded the King not to listen to any advice she might give him because she knew nothing of how to run a kingdom.
   “She doesn’t give me advice,” said the King in surprise, “that’s the very reason I spend time with her.”
   The Prophet had nothing to say to that. For it was true that the Servant no longer expressed any views on how the Kingdom was governed or the land used.

One day the King and the Servant took an evening walk down to the river. The year was growing older but the air was still warm and sweet with the perfume of a summer night. They stopped and watched the water run quickly by.
   “My time is coming,” said the Servant, “you know that I cannot stay silent any longer.”
   The King tried to ask what she meant but she ignored him, she just kissed his cheek and wished him goodnight. He was left in the gentle night listening to the river, while the daisies glowed pale at his feet and above him the stars flickered.

The following day dawned bright and hot. The scullery maid went to wake the Servant (who slept beside the embers of the fire in the kitchen) to find her gone. Her bed was empty and there were drops of blood amongst the ashes.
   The palace guards began their morning duties but were horrified to discover bloody footprints leading from the Kings Throne room, through the cool corridors and atrium out into the heat of the courtyard. From there they seemed to be directed into the heart of the city. They were smudged and smeared but still visible as the guards followed them through the market.
   The source of the footprints only became apparent when the guards reached the poorest streets of the city. The Servant was dressed, despite the heat, in the black veil and garments of a woman in mourning, and she walked slowly, carrying a bucket half filled with lamb’s blood. When her footsteps began to fade she would dip each foot in the blood and continue on her way. She wept all the while.
   At first she went almost unnoticed. But word travels faster than a walking woman and soon people were standing outside their houses waiting for her to pass by. Some stared at her or mocked her, but others gave her food and water, or even filled her bucket of blood. She did not sleep but kept walking, on and on, through the kingdom; past great houses and humble villages, through farmland and forest and metropolis. After just a few days under the hot sun the bucket of blood began to stink, of iron and decay.
   Her long route took her to the very outskirts of the kingdom, and when she had walked to its farthest border she began her slow return. On the way back a change came over her. She stopped weeping, she held her head up higher and a small group of travellers joined her. Misfits and vagabonds they were, outcasts and the most poverty-stricken; those who understood what she was mourning for.
   Together they walked the road that the Prophet had taken when he first arrived, passing many great fields of torn earth which had once been the forests and wild places, but which now lay naked and vulnerable. Ready for crops which would not be sewn until the following year.
   With sore feet and aching hearts they continued through the heat and dust, until, at last, the towers of the Kings palace lay on the horizon.

The Servant walked through the gates of the city and no one opposed her. She seemed taller than when she had left, although she was dirtier than ever, and held her head with a queenly bearing. She still dipped her feet in the blood, with her band of friends picked up along the way, close behind her.
   The city and the king’s court had all heard of her journey. When word reached the palace that she had returned, the city’s streets were thronged with the curious and the cruel. And overhead, thick clouds threatened to break the deafening heat at last.
   She requested an audience with the king. And was admitted with no resistance.
   In that bright, clean chamber the Servant and her followers seemed filthy. The bucket stank of blood and death.
   “I am the Servant,” her voice was clear and resonant, “and I came many times to advise you as best I could.”
   “What would you advise I do?” asked the King, “the Prophets plans are in motion, for better or worse. It would be madness to deviate from them.”
   “This is your last chance to steer your kingdom from the jaws of destruction. Many wild places remain, the earth might heal, your people are not yet so far removed from their relationship with the land that it cannot be restored,” and she walked right up to the King. He stood to receive her.
   “My dear,” she said gently, “I am saying this because I love you. Because you are a good king.”
   “Be silent, harpy!” the Prophets voice rang out like a bell, “wise King, I beg you to see reason, not to listen to this woman who is trying to change your mind with false kindness. She does not understand of what she speaks, she has never lead a kingdom, has never had to lead these people as you and I have. What does she know of feeding the hungry?
   “Furthermore, think of the sheer scale and cost of the preparations we have put in place. Would you throw all of that away on the word of a simple laywoman? And the handful of poor farmers that have followed her here? Your people could be rich, could truly make use of the land which now sits useless and overgrown with weeds. Why! In a few years you might be rich enough to export to the lands around your kingdom, think of the food grown here travelling far and wide! Your people could have anything they desired.”
   The King thought for a moment and then said, “and what of poor farmers such as these?” he gestured to the ragged band behind the Servant, “will they share in this wealth?”
   The Prophet began to speak but the King silenced him.
   “No,” he said, “I have ruled this kingdom for many years and I have learned that there is no such thing as limitless wealth: everything has its price. While some grow rich, others will grow poor. While many fruits are reaped one year, the land is tired and must rest the following year. I may know little about the land but these people, these lowliest ones, know much more than you or I. They know its seasons and cycles, how best to care for it so that it will care for them.”
   “You are foolish,” cried the Prophet, his face growing red, “your people will starve!”
   But before he could speak another word the Servant had emptied the bucket of blood over his head so that he was brown-red from head to toe, and the stench was released into the court.
   “This is the blood of your people,” she said, “but it will not be the blood of ours. Be gone!”
   And he fled in disgrace.

The Forest King married his third wife in the winter, in the crows-hawking-in-the-morning time, the skeleton-trees-against-the-sky time. Ice hardened the earth, their breath bloomed like white flowers in the forest and a bitter wind skinned their faces on the hilltops.
   But dreams of plenty are hard to forget. The people grew restive. Some marched in protest at the banishment of the Prophet. But still the King distributed food to the poorest and gave away his lovely robes.
   And even on the darkest night, when the people rioted in the streets and the courtiers pined for the Prophet with his grand plans, the King patiently waited for spring.

Because everything has its price: While some grow rich, others will grow poor.
While many fruits are reaped one year, the land is tired and must rest the next.
After a cruel winter comes a gentle spring.


The Servant took his hand and he was not afraid.

Monday, 19 September 2016

Have I been brainwashed by religion???


I was trying to get to sleep the other night when a frightening possibility occurred to me: I realised that I spend an unusually large percentage of my time (by the standards of most people) thinking about church, God, His plans for us and what He wants me to do. All that stuff. This wasn’t the frightening part, the frightening part was that maybe the only reason I love God and try to live my life how He wants, is because I think so much about this stuff. In a nutshell: what if I’ve been brainwashed to believe what I believe?

You can believe anything is a great cause if you think about it enough. You can come to the conclusion that genocide is the answer, that Middle Earth is more real that the UK, that meeting your own needs is the only way to be happy.

But then again, if I compare God to the other things that have taken up my thoughts over the years, God seems to have had a noticeably different effect on me.

I’ll give you some examples. In my teenage years, like most other teenagers, I thought mainly about boys and romance and sex. I became obsessed with the desire to be in a romantic relationship, and I felt sure that this would make me happy and complete, but the real results were disappointment and low self-esteem.

Then I retreated from the world and into my own head. I barely connected with other humans beyond shallow, daily interactions. My daydreams became stories and I wrote them down, every spare moment of thought was spent in them and they became as real as reality. This preoccupation with myself and my writing lead to self-absorption, loneliness and an inability to connect with others, until eventually even my creativity dried up.

Now, however, I think about God (although I still think about relationships and myself and my writing, cos I ain’t perfect). In stark contrast He has changed my life in better, subtle and more beautiful ways.


I no longer search for romantic love, or need male attention to boost my self-esteem; more often it comes from the person who created me and the friends He has placed around me. I am not as introverted and afraid; I can make friends and keep them and accept love from them. I don’t write so much but what I do write is more meaningful, and I’ve been given an incredible opportunity to illustrate a book.

I’m not saying everything is 100% wonderful because it’s sure as hell not. What I am saying is that God has grown me and healed me, and continues to grow and heal me the more time I spend with Him.

I have not been brainwashed: I am a different human being than I was seven years ago. And it is not a change that could ever have happened by accident or by my own doing (I promise you, aside from the fact that it was happening to me, I had no hand in the good stuff God has done in my life).


The thing about God is that He loves each of us, and it’s not a sort of pity-love or begrudging-love, but He truly likes us and wants to spend time with us. The only thing standing in the way is our own desire to do exactly what we want, when we want (this is what sin is) because we are arrogant enough to think we know what is best for us. We forget that God is fairly competent at His job (running the universe and all) and that He loves us more than we love ourselves.

All this sin pushes God away from us until He’s so far away that we may never even glimpse Him. A big ole wall is built up so high that we don’t even realise that there’s someone calling our name on the other side. But when Jesus died, rejected by his friends, humiliated, arms outstretched, He took our selfishness, fear and sin with Him. He made a direct connection between us and the Almighty so powerful that you only have to whisper a thought and He hears you, and if we decide that we don’t wanna do our own thing anymore, because it doesn’t work very well, that we wanna do God’s thing, He’s right there, waiting with His arms outstretched.

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Hello little friends! I didn’t want to write this post very much but I felt like God thought it was a good idea, so you can blame Him. If you have any thoughts or questions about this stuff please feel free to share them, either publicly on this post or privately by text or fb message.

Monday, 18 July 2016

The Lonely Hero and the Church


I’ve got this theory that loneliness has been romanticised. It could be the by-product of living in a world where individualism is so highly prized and where your ‘strength’ comes from not having to rely on other people. Then again it could be something way older.

Here’s some evidence for my theory. When I think of some of the most popular fictional characters, many of them are versions of what I have dubbed the Lonely Hero. Doctor Who for instance: his companions come and go but he always remains, saving worlds and travelling the universe, etc etc. Aragorn (from Lord of the Rings), the ultimate survivalist and Lone Wolf, is another great example, as are James Bond, Wolverine and a whole host of cowboy protagonists and detectives (I can’t seem to think of many female Lonely Heroes – please let me know if you’ve got any).

What is our fascination with the Lonely Hero? Why would an Aragorn with a wife and children be so much less sexy? Or a Doctor Who with a home to go to? Or James Bond going to the pub with a bunch of friends he’s known for years? I think that we have a habit of romanticising loneliness, which is a lot more worrying than it might sound.


We, as humans, seem to be designed to spend our lives with other humans. Even if we claim to ‘need our own space’ or ‘enjoy our own company’ the fact remains that whoever you are, if you spend too much time on your own, you tend to become more self absorbed, less able to interact socially.

I have been lonely at times in my life but often I didn’t fully recognise how lonely I was; it was very easy to convince myself that I just wasn’t a social person, I was a lone wolf, I enjoyed my freedom. And the thing about loneliness is that it can become a cycle that’s difficult to break. The more time I spent on my own, the harder it became to spend time with other people.

Perhaps it’s because loneliness is so common in this century: from the quintessential image of an elderly man or woman living alone, to the youths isolated by technology, the migrant who moves to a new place and knows no one, to office workers who spend their lives in cars and in front of screens. We are all lonely sometimes and if it can become a ‘strength’, something to be admired, then we feel a little bit better about things. Because it’s a humiliating, depressing, crushing state of existence; difficult to talk about and even harder to escape.


Cue the church.

‘The church is a people called out of the world to embody a social alternative’ (Jesus for President). When people think of church they think of (on the positive end of the scale) Sunday mornings, singing songs, coffee, prayer, Bibles and Sunday school. But that is not the church. Jesus wants the church to be a radical social movement, which heals the hurts of the world through love, kindness, gentleness, tolerance, generosity and self sacrifice.


The church is the ultimate barrier to loneliness. The buzzword ‘community’ has been flying about a lot recently, and although it seems to have lost much of its meaning with overuse, I really believe that community is what the church ought to be. We need to be the first people to admit that loneliness is a problem, whether it’s our own loneliness or that of the people we see every day. But we aren't perfect, in fact we are often so far from Jesus' idea of what the church should be that we exclude or isolate people rather than embracing and loving them. 

That’s why I’m praying that my church will be unified by Jesus, so that it will be a welcoming community and a haven for the lonely. After all, the Lonely Heroes never save the world all by themselves.

Two are better than one,
because they have a good return for their labour:
If either of them falls down,
one can help the other up.
But pity anyone who falls
and has no one to help them up.
If two lie down together, they will keep warm.
But how can one keep warm alone?
Though one may be overpowered,
two can defend themselves.
A cord of three strands is not quickly broken.
Ecclesiastes 4:9-12


This is a big topic, and one that several people were keen that I wrote about. So I probably didn't cover what you had in mind, and for that reason any thoughts/questions/alternative arguments are very much welcome as usual. 
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Thursday, 14 July 2016

New babies!

Since I'm doing this crazy food thing I thought I'd share a quick update for anyone interested.

It has been easier and harder than I thought: easier in that I have never been short of food, i've found buying from farmers markets a lot of fun and planning my meals more is very little hassle.

On the  other hand I'm not sure where I stand with being offered pre prepared food at work because I really want to know where it's from, and have come up against unusual adversaries like cats (who keep pooing on my plants).

But I still feel very excited about it all! Which is definitely a good thing. And above is a picture of my new baby basil plants (growing things is a sure fire way of knowing where they are from)

Have a great week and play outside kids :)

Tuesday, 28 June 2016

Earthly Empires vs the Nation of God



I’ve been reading Jesus for President by Shane Claiborne and Chris Haw and it is an amazing book, I want to lend it to everyone I know. The part I’m reading is about the early church during the centuries after Jesus left earth, and the struggles they faced living in the Roman Empire.

I didn’t realise that during that time Caesar and God were often interchangeable in Roman citizens’ minds. And not bowing down to Caesar meant persecution and even death. The Empire was built on plenty of dodgy stuff: slavery, exploitation of the poor, greed, unsustainable growth, environmental destruction etc (sound familiar?), and the Church was having a hard time getting by without bowing down to it or falling in love with its spoils.

God is not big on empires. Remember how reluctant he was to give Israel a king? They wanted to be like the other nations with a big strong human ruler, but really the only person who can handle that sort of power is God himself. Their desire for a king broke Gods heart because they were effectively rejecting him as their ruler and father.


On the other hand the early church was closer to Gods idea of how human society should function: they shared everything they had, gave to the poor, forgave debts, redistributed land, welcomed immigrants. They also attempted to separate themselves from the Roman market place (the agora), because to buy and sell there you had to pledge allegiance to Caesar – which was obviously problematic – and because it represented the dominance of the empire over people’s lives.

The church today ultimately faces the same challenges and difficulties as it did then, although admittedly they’ve changed their masks over the centuries. The question that is at the forefront of my mind is: how can we exist in this world without condoning the things that go against God's beautiful plan?

We are part of the nation we live in: we should be an example to it and love its people. But at the same time we are not part of this nation: we are the Nation of God, one which transcends race, culture, class and religion, that is beyond the economies, armies and empires of this world.

Our problem is that we don’t question the paths that bring clothes to our wardrobes, food to our tables, money to our pockets. We don’t question how it can possibly be sustainable to consume so much energy, space and stuff (I’ll give you a clue, every action has an equal and opposite reaction). Claiborne and Haw ask “Is it possible we can’t see the destructiveness of our economy not because we don’t know it’s terrible but because deep down we feel that it’s necessary and therefore hopeless to criticise it?”


Last year I gave up supermarkets for lent. Now I feel like God is asking even more of me: to separate myself from the empire wherever I can, to know that what I buy comes from a source acceptable to God, to consume only what I need and no more, and to trust that he will provide for me.

It could tail off, like my supermarket experiment, or it could crash and burn. And I will probably slip up and fail over and over. But it feels right, which is why I intend to begin as I mean to go on: I’m going to Whiteladies Road Market on Saturday for my weekly shop. So give me a buzz if you want me to pick you something up.

All the believers were together and shared everything. They would sell their land and the things they owned and then divide the money and give it to anyone who needed it... [The believers] ate together in their homes, happy to share their food with joyful hearts. They praised God and were liked by all the people. Acts 2:44-47


This post was heavily inspired by Jesus for President by Shane Claiborne and Chris Haw. So if you wanna find out more read the book, or borrow mine when I'm done :)

Comments/thoughts/criticism/questions are very welcome as always.

Monday, 20 June 2016

Missy H Dunaway


I have a nearly finished blog post, but I have decided instead to quickly share my favourite artist with you.

She is called Missy H Dunaway. She paints double pages in dye-based and acrylic-based ink in a moleskine sketch book, and she is a sort of travel artist. Her paintings conjure up the call for prayer echoing over the rooftops of Istanbul, shady temples sweet with sunshine and birdsong, the winter luxury of Paris.

What I love about her work is her use of colour and light. It is so beautiful and so true to life that when you squint your eyes you could believe you are seeing what she saw. Her shapes are less accurate, but that gives her work an inperfect charm (and I really distrust perfection), an organic quality which draws you in.

This is probably because she studied impressionist painting and worked entirely outside, like a true impressionist. She also writes short anecdotes (only a line or two) on her paintings and the combination of her art and words makes me feel like I’ve actually been to Istanbul and Paris and all the other beautiful places.

I could sing her praises for a very long time but really it would be much better for you to have a look for yourself.  I don't expect she'll be everyone's cup of tea but here’s her website anyway:



I'll be back with my finished post soon hopefully, have a great week.

Saturday, 28 May 2016

Strengths and Weaknesses: Lessons learned from The Island


I started thinking about this after my jaunt to Manchester the other weekend. My friend Abbie (who I like to think of as Abbie the Artist even though she has renounced art for the timebeing) knows a lot of about feminism and culture, and told me that nearly all aspects of our lives are viewed through the male eye, regardless of whether we are male or female.

This is reflected in what we consider to be strengths and weaknesses. Being the leader and being assertive make you a strong person. Making decisions, taking risks, being independent. Being physically strong and emotionally strong.

If anyone watched the most recent series of The Island with Bear Grylls you might have seen a lot of this stuff in action. This was the first year when the men and women were put on the same island and had to survive together, and it was something of a social experiment.

What interested me was that the Islanders learned that characteristics they considered to be assets weren’t quite so important, whilst those they might have overlooked became lifelines.

Physical strength for example; the larger, stronger members of the group suffered more towards the end because they needed more food thus becoming a burden on everyone else. Risk taking also caused problems; those who took risks often ended up putting themselves out of action. And when some members of the group asserted themselves as leaders they drowned out the voices of quieter members and missed out on their skills and ideas, a mistake which could have proved dangerous on more than one occasion.


I’ve realised that I think like this too. I value some skills above others, I downplay characteristics which are considered to be ‘weak’ or ‘feminine’.

How many people describe themselves as gentle? That’s like describing yourself as a pushover, it is, at best, associated with babies and kittens. But intentional gentleness has so much power; it’s hard to trust or work with a forceful person. Jesus was often described as gentle, and he was the most controversial, politically provocative figure in history.

Kindness is another good one. Dumbledore said to Harry “Just like your mother, you're unfailingly kind. A trait people never fail to undervalue, I'm afraid.” Bang on the money, Dumbledore. We’re taught to be kind from when we’re little kids, and so kindness is for children: you can’t afford to be kind in the adult world. But Bear Grylls reminded the men and women before they went on the island to be kind and they realised that it was vital to look out for another, keep everyones spirits up and boost each others self-confidence.


So I suppose my point is that maybe we should rethink which characteristics we consider to be ‘strong’ and which ones are ‘weak’, we should stop ranking some strengths as more important than others, and we should try not to associate particular characteristics as masculine or feminine. Men can be gentle; women can be leaders. After all, we are all unique and cannot be put into a category or a box.


Those parts of the body that seem to be the weaker are really necessary. And the parts which we think are less deserving are the parts to which we give the most honour... together you are the body of Christ, and each one of you is a part of that body. 1 Corinthians 12:22-27

Any responses/thoughts/ideas are welcome as usual :)


Also, if you've got time to kill (and if you're reading this then, lets be honest, you probably do) here's an extremely interesting article about some research which might just throw all our ideas about gender out the window.
http://www.joshuakennon.com/the-six-common-biological-sexes-in-humans/